Beginning to wonder if negative thoughts ever really go away or if we just become masters at distracting ourselves from them and covering them up with other things? I wanna get to the root of my self hatred and clear it all out but I’ve been actively searching for the last 5 years or so and I’m extremely exhausted. I don’t know why I’m like this and I don’t know how to fix it. Distractions have kept me from feeling down in more recent months but as soon as I am taken out of those situations and enclosed in my own 4 walls with nothing to entertain me but the thoughts in my head, I find myself falling back into destructive thinking patterns. Will I ever get better? Any solution I’ve found is temporary. Another distraction. I feel so lost and so afraid of my own self