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Do me a favor okay?
Stop trying to go back to who you were before. Before you were raped, before you got sick before an eating disorder took over your life. stop trying to be who you were five, ten, twenty years ago. Before the mental illness took over, before he died, back before your parents split or you lost your best friend.You are NOT the same person as before. You never will be again. Give up the idolization of “before” and be who you are now. Be the you AFTER.
Thank you
no post on tumblr has ever hit me more than this whoa
Been thinking a lot about death lately, which in turn has me thinking a lot about life. Up until recently I have had the privilege of remaining ignorant to the fact that, yes, we are all going to die someday. It’s one of those thoughts that I was able to push into the category of things in my brain entitled “for another day.” I am fortunate in that I have only said goodbye to one loved one thus far, so I’ve avoided the reality that people are faced with when reminded of immortality. But the universe had new plans for me this year. First came the 3 hour long encounter with lions while backpacking earlier this summer. Then came the 38 minutes last month when the entire island of Oahu believed we were about to be blown up by a missile. These are the only instances in my life where I can say I was certain (in my mind) I was going to die. What has stuck with me the most since being able to reflect on these moments isn’t fear of death. It’s the fact that the only reason I was sad or afraid at all is because of what I’d be leaving behind. Love. People, places, memories. I was grateful for the good and the bad didn’t matter. I believe I had these experiences to teach me the true value of living life courageously. The fears I’ve dealt with for so long seem silly now. I vividly remember thinking “wow, all the times I’ve wished for death and now that it’s here it’s the last thing I want.” There is too much life left to live. I needed my world to be completely shaken up in order to wake up and realize that I have only been living life halfway. I’ve given entirely too much mental and emotional energy to my fears and anxieties. Trust me when I tell you that none of the insecurities, stresses, or worries that you’re holding on to will matter when it is your time to go. If you’re like me, all you’ll feel is saddened by the thought of leaving behind everything you love, with maybe a touch of regret for being the only obstacle that ever TRULY kept you from living your best life possible. So you may as well try to let go and enjoy the ride while you’re still you; I know I will surely be putting a lot more heart and a little less worry into everything I do from this point on. 💛
the glow around the moon 