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Typically when I start crushin’ on someone, it happens quickly and I fall hard. For the idea of who they are and what they represent. Then I get to actually know them and realize the idealized version of who I thought they were is far from reality and I decide we’re better off as friends– usually after it’s too late because feelings have developed on their end as well, except they were sure of what they felt from the beginning while I was all over the place (but what else is new?)

This time it happened differently. It started off as a friendship. I will admit I was turned off in the beginning because I knew there were feelings on the other side that I was sure (or so I thought) I’d never be capable of reciprocating… and then we went camping and everything changed. This time I’ve fallen hard but it’s for the little details that make up who they are as an individual. And how in sync we are without putting any conscious effort into it. You know it’s real when it grows out of nothing instead of having it fizzle out from that initial rush of excitement!!! This is so backwards for me but it finally feels right