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I often find myself wishing I was the flawless, outgoing, bubbly girl with the type of personality that everyone instantly falls in love with. Because it can sometimes feel like I’m not enough as I am. And it’s so easy to compare myself to other people, especially those types of people, because they let themselves be seen and heard as opposed to people like me who shy away and hide. All I see is the large gap in-between who I am and who I feel I need to be. But I have to ask myself: is the reason I want to be that type of person for my own gain or simply so that people will like me? And why do I need that validation from other people? Maybe it’s less of needing to be liked and more of not wanting to be disliked. I think that may be one of the worst feelings – being sized up and judged by people who have absolutely no idea who I am on the inside, only based off of who I am in social settings. Andddddd I guess that’s why I’ve developed such a fear of being around people. Because if I don’t let myself be seen then who can really judge me? The pain of avoidance and missing out on opportunities seems to hurt less than the possible pain that may come from rejection. Which is ridiculous when I think about it logically. I need to reframe my mindset because this isn’t working anymore.